Oh, I do know what you mean when you say you've cried all of a sudden for feeling so alone. I know what it's like... but today it was different. I cried, as I always do, since it seems like that was my pre-programmed, automatic way to express my most intense emotions; but I cried with a smile on my face. I can't believe how powerful our minds can be, how the only thought of you can bring you to life. As I do things I do, alone, I just imagined having you there by my side, and pictured the things I would be saying, and doing with you. It made the whole experience feel like I wasn't alone. Who knows, who said we can't be at two places at once? I don't know where this is going to go... but it makes absolute sense right now. I can know that the feelings I thought I would never experience again, are coming to life once more... with my feet on the ground yet my eyes looking up at the sky of possibilities of what this might become. I feel blessed. I feel the energy I lacked for so long, the understanding of how good things do come to those who have hope. I had these thoughts in my mind, they generated so many feelings... then emotions... then tears... but this was amazing. It was amazing to know that these feelings are not just bouncing off the walls, they are no longer unrequited. It made me feel so special... so different, like it has been worth the wait. Thank you for existing.
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