Win-Win

They say there lays the problem… when we render it all, when we wear our hearts on the sleeve, when we open our hearts too much (Is there such thing?). I’d say the problems is when we don’t, when we’re too careful… but I’ve come to the conclusion that at least for me, it’s always going to be a win-win situation. Why? Well, if I’m appreciated, and loved back the same way, with the same intensity, loyalty and respect… then I’ll be happy (mmm really really happy!). If I’m taken advantage of, or betrayed, or just not loved the same way and I end up with a broken heart… then I’d be proven right (this makes me happy). The idea in my head that love isn’t meant for me, and it’s never reciprocal, and that men (those whom I feel attracted  to) lack the capacity to handle and love a woman like me… then this truth in my head is validated, and I am right… and the feeling of being right is another one I seem to be addicted to. So, either way, I win (no, really!). This last one might be uncomfortable to deal with at first, but it will still make me feel good about myself somehow. So, yeah… it’s whatever. I win! Either way! J buahahahahahaha. No, I’m not being sarcastic… lol.