Saturday, February 19, 2011

The Light

A while back...


The light...
Inside of me... It's gone off.
I can't turn it back on.
I need to find a way to...
This isn't about love anymore.
It's more about life.
I can't find it in me anymore.
I don't know why I'm writing you.
Perhaps because you were the last one who saw it... Or at least you were there the last time I saw it.
Do you know what I'm talking about?
Do you have any idea?
Were you really there? At all? Ever?
Did I ever make sense?
Am I wrong to think you understood me?
Anyway... The light...
Not about love, or desire, or passion...
It's the light of life... Of hope.
It's gone.

And I miss you.
I still do.
I think of you.
And sometimes I think I love you...
Although I more often hate you.

I replay in my head the happy moments, then this doubt invades my mind...
I really start to question if it really happened.

And then I say the things my mom would say... Or my sisters would say...

You're a strong woman.
You're young and beautiful...
You'll find happiness some day.

As if that changed anything...

As if it turned my light back on.

But it doesn't.

There's no way to comfort something that sees no pain...
The lack of light makes it impossible to see anything.
No pain, no scars, no fear...
Not even your face.

Good bye baby.

2 comments:

  1. "so far and beyond
    we look for answers
    searching and dissecting
    as if its a universal cure for cancers
    however, truth be told
    as the beauty we behold
    nothing is away from within you
    the light shining bright
    is still piercing that inspiration within you
    why stop dreaming
    when life is nothing but hope
    why stop living
    when dreams and reality have still yet to elope?
    Tell me there's a limit
    and I will show it's endless possibilties
    because there's miracles
    and then there's pure soul's tenacities
    "
    -MM

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