Still Strong

Tonight I saw you, I felt the beating of my heart speed up.

I turned away, yet your face was stuck in my mind, I saw you smile.
I stood not knowing what to do, what to expect, I felt that pain again.
And you just walked away, didn't come close, then you were gone.
It's better off that way, I guess, but you still managed to stir things up.
Emotions I thought I'd never feel again, struck once more.
Why did I fall for you?  I wonder.  You didn't offer me that much.
Why would you even bother talking to me? Why did I smile at your stupid joke?
I guess I needed you, and you opened the door to what I've now become.
A lot has changed, a lot has passed, I thought I had moved on.
The impact of your presence weakens my steps, my confidence,
I wish I could forget you.  There was nothing there to learn.
It was nothing, it was wrong, but I know why I fell hard.
Again the story repeated itself, since you somehow brought what I was lacking of.
It seemed as if you could ease the hurt, as if you could give me love.
But now I understand, you couldn't love me, I didn't love me so.
I won't judge or blame you anymore, I think I know what's up.
You only knew so much, I just hope to one day let go, move on.
I know I can count the times I've been so close to you, so very few.
That's what makes me wonder, why it all felt so strong