I Am Sorry

I hurt you, I let your love bleed to death. Since I’ve lost you, I’ve been feeling that same pain I brought upon you. I look back and try to grasp the happy time we shared, I know you’re gone now, I know it’s too late. I just wish you knew how badly I want to say I’m sorry. I wish you knew how much I long to see your face. I wish you could only understand how a simple word, a simple kiss my world could change. I would say to you that you will never again have to worry; that I’m so sorry, that I will make things right this time. I will somehow make you fall in love with me again. I will make sure to make you happy, and please you day and night. Oh you have no idea how much I want to be your queen again. I’ll never again neglect our love, our home. If there are open wounds which never seem to heal I want to be there to try to cure them. I will render my life and pay for every tear. If you only held my hand and let me walk beside you. I know I am the woman of your dreams. I know the way we met was meant to be. I know I wasn’t perfect but it doesn’t mean you’re not for me. I’ve lost all logic, I cannot think. My heart is leading every step, you’re like the air I breathe. I am sorry. I want to win you back. Baby all you got to do is open your heart. I’ll be your woman, you’ll be my man. Do it once more, I promise it’ll be worth it. I’ll be your home, your friend, your lover and companion. Let’s walk together through this path called life. Let’s forget about the past and move on to the light. Let’s share our lives, render our love to each other. Let’s always remember the love we share and shine for others. Let’s try this again, start fresh, start over. Let’s look up at the sky and be thankful this wasn’t over. How many years ahead of us, think about it. How many days we’ll spend just loving and cherishing each other. The things I’ll do for you, you have no idea. I wish you only knew what’s in store for you. I am sorry for everything I did before. Let me give you my love, love me back, just once more.

Hopeful Dream

Hopeful Dream

I close my eyes and see you here

Walking around in this hopeful dream

Losing you has become a strong and painful fear 

I just wish to wake up and feel you wipe away my tears

You wrote me once about a test of love

About how distance would prove it strong

If past the struggles it still prevailed

 You said it would be stronger and last forever

Not sure if this is your intention

Or if you just moved towards a different direction

All I know is my heart’s still beating hard for you

Only for you, my dear love, it’s true

They say good things come to those who wait

Others say waiting is just a waste of time

Everybody’s trying to live life so fast

I just don’t believe love has to be put off or be last

Soy Maria

Soy mujer voluble, soñadora e ilusa

Hija de los árboles, amarrada en pasiones

Latina, trigueña, melena rizada

Soy un mundo de contradicciones

Amante y amiga, enemiga y aliada

No soy lo que he vivido, sino lo que he aprendido

Y lo que aprendí se encuentra en el vacío

Entre la loma del desdén y el serro del olvido

Soy amiga de los ríos, hermana de motañas

Anciosa, rebelde, un poco desconfiada

Soy luna de días tristes, sol de noches solitarias

Con senos y con caderas bien formadas

Pendiente de las voces, víctima de las miradas

En mi cuerpo hay cicatrices, hay lunares

Camino a pasos firmes, frente en alto

Con lágrimas, reprocho mis pesares

Soy el viento, el arroyo, soy la vida

La hija de un Dios, la naturaleza misma

Ingenua, mentirosa, perdida y heroína

Soy la risa, la gitana, soy Maria

Soy las lágrimas de mi madre

Y ahi busco herencia de su fuerza

Soy de mi patria exiliada

Muerte, tormenta, llanto y alma suelta

Me resisto a lo sucio del pantano
Soy enemiga del pasado, y poseo yo un anhelo

Buscando ser tan limpia como lluvia

Sigo los consejos de mi abuelo

Soy el azul del cielo, el rojo de mi sangre

Lo obscuro de mis ojos, que disfrutan tantas tardes

Soy el terreno de mi padre, fértil en teoría

Contemplo las estrellas, buscando compañía

Soy el tiempo perdido, un minuto mal gastado

Ni en mente ni vientre a un hijo he formado

Soy lo que nace del fruto del destino

Vengo del odio y del amor mas fino

Soy lo que nadie sabe y lo que todos quieren

Lo que me llena y me conviene

Soy el vuelo y el regreso

Soy el fuego y el consuelo que profeso

Soy mujer hermosa, soy Maria

Heredera soy de gran gran sabiduría

Aunque en un eterno beso me he entregando

Ahi el amor real no he conquistado

My Love, My Cry, My Pain

If you call my love a game

I guess the ball is in your court

If you think this isn't good enough

It's 'cause you never understood my soul

If the past has made you change

And you lost the power to forgive

Then what's the point of dragging me along?

You're selfish not to let me leave

And all I'm left with is the echo in my head

Of all the promises and words you said

And all I wanted was to love you

Am I fool to think you cared?

So I stand before you...

And all I ask from you today

Some sort of closure, is it too late?

And you're not talking, you're standing there

Oblivious to my love, my crying, my pain

If the past has made you change

And you lost the power to forgive

Then what's the point of dragging me along?

You're selfish not to let me leave

And all I'm left with is the echo in my head

Of all the promises and words you said

And all I wanted was to love you

Am I fool to think you cared?

So I stand before you...

And all I ask from you today

Some sort of closure, is it too late?

And you're not talking, you're standing there

Oblivious to my love, my crying, my pain

If the rain today could wash away

The memories and all those words you said

If time would quickly pass me by

I'd have the strength to find my way

Once Again

So it happened once again.  I thought I was strong, I thought I had it all together; I thought this would never happen to me again.  I thought my past experiences were meaningful enough for me to grow out of certain behaviors.  I guess you can’t always have everything under control, even your own attitudes and actions.  I guess sometimes love will just come along and there’s nothing you can to do about it.  If it’s meant to be, it will find its way (right?)… and although most times it isn’t, there will be a way to grow out of it, to forget and move on.  The thing I notice is that each time it happens, a part of me is lost.  Perhaps I lose innocence, or just my dream of life becomes less and less real and more and more unreachable.  I lose enthusiasm and hope.  I remember making the decision, I remember the hesitation I felt about going forward with this feeling, I remember being able to control my thoughts and my feelings towards him, I remember not wanting to be with him and the reasons behind it.  Then I let my dreams of love come into play, I started visualizing what I was doubtful about, I let my guard down, I trusted and gave in.  I fell for him.  I knew better, I remembered the reasons why I don’t fall for anyone anymore, yet I ignored them all.  I thought I had a chance at something great.  This is what happens though… this is the reason why I don’t fall so quickly anymore. My doubts and fears exist for a reason.  I don’t even think it was worth it at all, and I'm glad it didn't last long.   Now I’m sure everything he said was unreal.  No, I wouldn’t say he lied… perhaps he believed the words he said, perhaps he thought there was a feeling when in reality there was nothing there; nothing real, nothing tangible, nothing concise or genuine.  It was more of an expression of his discontentment for his luck.  It was a way to prove himself; it was the need of some sort of assertion or validation of his truths.  Yeah, yeah… the “I’ve been hurt and nobody I love ever treats me right” kind of thing.  Well it turns out that it is only truth because when he is indeed loved, he cannot handle it, he walks away, because finding the love that he proclaims to long for and want for his life, is something he’s not ready to embrace.  He doesn’t trust it himself, he stops "loving" when he is loved the way he claims to want to be loved.  It’s unfair and hypocritical.  It’s life, I suppose.  I can’t control the way other people feel towards life, towards love or towards me.  I can only move on and don’t let things like this put me down.  I know who I am, and the love I can offer myself should, is, and will be enough for me to be happy.  There is this song that says that we waste our life looking for that ultimate happiness that we forget to embrace and enjoy the small joys of life, which in all truth, is where happiness dwells. I have so many joyful moments that it would be ungrateful of me to whine about stuff like this.  This happens, it’s life… It’s really not a big deal.  There is just so much more ahead of me... I can't wait to be back on my feet!  He’s just one more person in the world I loved, but my heart is way too big for me to think that there won’t be anyone else.  I remember the first time I had my heart broken... I felt so sad and lost.  I remember my sister saying to me that one day I was going to look back and be thankful that I didn't end up with that person... back then, the pain blurred my vision and I didn't believe her.  Now, I look back and I am indeed so grateful at the turn of events and how everything worked itself out.  I know I will feel the same way -in time- about this situation. Yes, everything’s ok.  I am okay and I am still blessed, it just sucks to realize that we can’t have everything we want.  We can’t be with everyone we love.  What’s left to do?  Wait it out and move on.  It’s okay.  I always think in the back of my head that I’m not the one who’s missing out.  I don’t mean it in a selfish or conceited way, but more on a self-reflective way.  I know I am strong enough to make myself happy, since after all, I’m the only person capable of doing that

Quienes Somos

Somos hijas espirituales de Dios, amadas por El, y nuestra vida tiene significado, propósito y dirección.  Como hermandad mundial, estamos unidas en nuestra devoción a Jesucristo, que es nuestro Salvador y nuestro Ejemplo.  Como mujeres de fé, de virtud, de visión, y de caridad que somos:

·      Incrementámos nuestro testimonio de Jesucrsito por medio de la oración y del estudio de las Escrituras.

·      Procuramos adquirir fortaleza espiritual al seguir los susurros del Espíritu Santo.

·      Estamos consagradas al fortalecimiento del matrimonio, de la familia y del hogar.

·      Consideramos que es noble ser madre y que es un gozo ser mujer.

·      Nos deleitámos en prestar servicio y en hacer obras buenas.

·      Amamos la vida y el aprendizaje.

·      Defendemos la verdad y la rectitud.

·      Apoyamos el Sacerdocio como la autoridad de Dios sobre la tierra.

·      Nos regocijamos en las bendiciones del templo, comprendemos nuestro destino divino y nos esforzamos por alcanzar la exaltación.

Despertar

Despertar.   Prender la luz.

Despertar y saber que no estuviste sola.  

Despertar y saber que alguien te abrazo. 

Despertar y sonreír al saberte a salvo. 

Despertar y saber que hay un nuevo propósito. 

Despertar,  correr y abrazar aquello de lo que te perdiste por un momento. 

Despertar con la frustración de haber perdido un instante… para después comprender que acabas de nacer. 

Despertar sin la sed de lo perdido; despertar feliz por ser amada. 

Despertar y despedir el sueno de golpe con un beso. 

Despertar al amor… despertar a jugar. 

Despertar a convivir con el testigo de tu vuelo;  centinela de tu sueño.

Despertar a desligar tus ilusiones y dejarlas ser. 

Despertar a revivir los ensueños, y seguir escribiendo tu historia.

Despertar para ver morir la soledad.

Despertar para prolongar lo efímero; para eternizar los destellos del brillo de sus ojos.

Despertar a tu amado, sanarle una herida.

Despertar.  Al despertar se esfuma el desdén de un adiós sin despedida.

Despertar a ver lo mágico del soñar despierto.

Despertar sin estar sola.  Despertar enamorada.

Despertar y ver morir el día, y nacer el tiempo.

Despertar y verle ahí… es saber que Dios existe.

Despertar es la bendición de la vida; despertar al amor más sublime.

Despertar siendo amada… es como sanar de toda enfermedad.

Despertar es como la línea donde el cielo se une al mar…

Despertar con el alma en la garganta, con ganas de llorar.

Despertar a ver el rio, a ver llover, o ver el sol.

Despertar doliera, si no existiera el amor.

Despertar de ver a Dios, decirle adiós

Soberbio

Te otorgas el permiso de insultar su inteligencia

Crees que sabes más de ese corazón que ella resguarda bajo el pecho

Te sientes rey del universo de su mente;  soberbio, victorioso te sonríes

Confiado de que hay alguien que te ama, que no te condiciona, ni reclama.

Ignoras que el pasado la ha escaldado de esa indiferencia

Y ahí vas estúpido, pretendiendo matar a los cadáveres

Pero no es tu víctima quien te hará pagar por las heridas

Sino la vida misma quien te pasará la cuenta.

Caminas por ahí presumiendo ser graduado de lecciones de la vida

Crees que en tus consejos hay sabiduría, iluso, si ni de tus hijos cuidas

Pero cuando llegue el fin de tu jornada, sabrás que lo que diste no fué nada

No habrá frutos en la tierra no labrada, amor no encontrarás en su mirada

There's Nothing Like

There’s nothing like the warmth I feel while sleeping in your arms.

And nothing like that quiet, gentle kiss in the middle of the night.

There’s nothing like the words I hear when I wake up,

That tell me I’m the only one you love.

There’s nothing like the glow I see myself in when I look into your eyes.

There’s nothing like that growing fire when your lips touch mine

The adventurous hours that occur in the dark

Those long passionate hours, there’s just nothing alike.

There’s nothing to forgive, nothing to forget

Baby when you hold me, all my tears and pains go away.

I love you now, and I’ll love you forever

Nothing else matters, as long as we fight for this together.

There’s nothing like the joyful moments we share

And nothing like the struggles which sometimes come our way.

I know I’ll always love you, and I’ll always care,

There’s nothing our love and our bond cannot bear.