It meant more than I'd like to admit now...

Sept 26 2011 - Oct 30 2012

It hurts. It really does... I still think of him daily... I still cry sometimes. It's been easier because, well, I've done this over and over... and it's easier because I am so busy. I really put so much on my plate so that I wouldn't crumble... and it's working. I guess what hurts the most is knowing that he left not knowing anything about me... or how I felt. Not understanding the depth of my feelings for him. I don't blame him... I wasn't quite the person that I know I am. I think I was in a fog. I, however, better than ever understand how deep I can love. He means so much to me... more than I'd like to admit... more than I can handle. I have failed at grasping my feelings myself... I can't put it into words. I know it changed me... and I know it will always be a part of me one way or another. Team Suzie Q ends here.