Kiss Me, Hold Me, Touch Me

Kiss me... I know this is both our fantasy
Hold me... Let's pretend our eyes transmit our soul completely
Touch me... Not as if this is our first time, but as if it were our last

I feel your breath so close to my heart
I feel your hands exploring me as I forget my name
Rendered wholly to this moment, baby...
I can't deny, this is more than I can handle

Right or wrong... it's so irrelevant at this point
It's turned into a Now-or-Never escape
I can't let go... I know I won't stop
As long as you don't either... So...

Kiss me, hold me, touch me...
The moment is timeless now and tomorrow non-existent
Kiss me... I won't pull back
Grab me... I'll fight you back
Hold me... and make this last

Distrust

I shouldn’t blame a haunting past for this feeling of distrust,
I shouldn't hide the doubts or pain as if it they weren't there
I should instead be real, voice out my fears
Cry out loud and scream how so to giving up I'm near

I shouldn't put a smile on my face with angry thoughts beneath it
I shouldn't play pretend perfection when I feel it's not in me
Perhaps I should take a few days to myself
Clear my head, vent and give my mind some space.

I sit there waiting as if I weren't really stalling
Hoping that one day it would come to me more naturally
A failed attempt, no return as I'd expected
My mind at lightspeed speeds makes me surrender

Lost and broken, fallen and destroyed
There I lay waiting for some sort of closure
Tired of ignoring the agonizing voice within me
Closure won't deliver, I'm losing my composure

It...

I knew it was a feeling that when I came back from, I wouldn't be able to describe. Everything was turning... Swirling inward somehow... Nonstop. My mind was dreaming... Moving from one thing to the next, but then the next thing became the same as the first... Repeating over and over. It was new and overwhelming, yet not quite as pleasing as I had expected. However, I did enjoy the journey of my mind. I could see creations in different colors, vibrand colors and shapes dancing and sequencing in a very melodic nature. This also felt like memories. I remember feeling the embrace of a bigger person around me as I closed my eyes and gave in; as if I was a newborn in someone's arms. I was small in size, yet bright and alert in matters of the psyche... or the mind. This was uncomfortable at times, but also rewarding in a weird and strange way. I wasn't sure if I wanted it to stop, but I couldn't concentrate on the thought... I just enjoyed the incredible nature of the experience, as I remembered the illusions of an awaken imagination and creativity... I was hopeful.

No Bars, No Lies, No Chains

Q wrote to me...

"Now...

I have you where I want you,
No bars, no lies, no chains,
I never thought I'd have you,
So a feeling still remains.
What should I do to keep you?
in what way should I change?
All I want to do is You,
You're all I'll ever know.
If you take this trip with me,
Imagine where we'll go;
Close your eyes and see my hands
As they touch you slow.
This is all so new to me...
Tell me where to go.
When I reach this point,
Will you let me know?
So we can hold each other tight,
Together we'll explode.
Your eyes meet mine, our lips will touch,
I'll slow down if you like me to.
There is no rush
Tell me what you like to do,
I just wanna have you,
Make you say my name,
Keep you as my prisoner,
No bars, no lies, no chains."

- Quinton E. King


I love you baby!