To Lie or Not to Lie

To Lie or Not to Lie
Current mood: geeky

Okay, here's my dilemma.

I'm a terrible liar. 

Once upon a rainly day, during Psychology class, bored as usual, the teacher caught my attention when he started talking about being able to read peoples' minds.  Since he did not know the actual trick to it (duh, most of us are humans), he gave us an idea by mentioning the main characteristic of liars. He mentioned that liars usually look down or sideways while talking (yes, little things like these amaze me). So I ponder...

If people are consciously aware of this, they will not do it; specially if they're know they're being doubted.  But let's not forget the difference between the conscious and pre-conscious.  (Pre-conscious is where memories are stored, facts that can be brought up to the conscious.  The conscious is what's actually on their mind at the moment, the current thoughts, you may say).  So we can all be good liars (if we bring this up to our conscious) by keeping our eyes in place when lying....... we can all be bad liars (by leaving this in the pre-conscious) and forgetting this info, and unconsciously moving our eyes down when we lie....... or we can be great liar tellers (by keeping this info in our conscious, and not let the other person know they're being tested).... so yes, pretend everything's ok... (here starts the lying again). LOL this is confusing already right?

I just thought I'd share this much with you all.  To continue with my issue, I have just been thinking that sometimes lying is a lot easier than not lying.

I feel very unconfortable, guilty, I think I'm being watched...set up, paranoia maybe.  My hands start to get warm, and eventually sweat.  My heart starts beating a little faster than normal. My eyes look elsewhere...but the main thing I do, is smile.  Yes, a weird/funny smile appears out of nowhere exposing me.  So that's why I can't do it.

But why do people who do it get away with it? How do we become masters of lying? Is this another weapon against the shit life puts us through.  Is this a defense mechanism.  Is it okay to do in certain situations?

Should I lie or should I not?

I just wrote a letter to one of my favorite liars, telling him how sad it was to know that he thought so low of himself that he had to fake being someone else.  That it did not matter how good he was at lying, he would always be a LOSER for not being happy with whom he was.  That he could lie to the world but not to himself.  That when he watched himself in the mirror he would know that everything he had was just an illusion.  Because people around him would love the "one" created, and not the real him. 

Isn't this depressing?

I think, to end my blog... that my dilemma has been solved by my own meditation on this fact.  I will stay an honest girl... for the sake of my happiness.  I read recently on someone's myspace quote that....

"IT'S BETTER TO BE HATED FOR WHAT I AM, THAN LOVED FOR WHAT I'M NOT"

Totally agree!

Your honest friend,

Susana

BTW, now that I'll start being totally honest, YOU GUYS ALL SUCK!!! LOL JUST KIDDING.

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