Fallen

Waking up covered in sweat
Perhaps they were my lonesome tears
what wet my face, my skin
Wishing I could sleep away my fears

I try to run, I try to walk
Lying to myself, my head up high
as if this heart didn't still hurt
as if it had ceased to cry

Unsure of what was real
I try to grasp what seemed surreal
Wondering if I dreamed it all
If Love indeed transformed me

Wondering too if I could move on
Leaving the fears and scars behind
Hoping to find in a new air my home
Naive I thought home's what your arms behold

Freedom

I’ve realized that I’ve mistakenly rejected or avoided those very few who have or had the ability to understand me.  Perhaps it was my fear to feel exposed, or vulnerable to someone who inevitably would have great power over me.  I know it must've been insecurity, but the loss of control (or what I perceived as that) wasn't something I was ready for.  Instead I chose to be around those who only underestimated me.  Disappointment was nothing but a deserved result.  I was so dependent to feeling safe.  I always prided myself in my accomplishments, or my independence, thinking that it only entailed self-sufficiency.  Little did I know that I was nothing but a slave: a slave of my own fears and erroneous ideas.  Now, I am a work in progress, I have a long way to go, but I feel like I'm closer as now I understand what freedom really means.  

I always thought that independence guaranteed freedom; I still do, but my understanding of independence has completely changed.  I associated independence with having money, things or means (or not having to rely on someone else's financial support to survive).  I was wrong; turns out you’re never as free as when you find yourself with nothing.  Not one thing at all to hold you down… to cut your wings.  Not owing anything... but also not owning anything.  Independence is about your insights, your self-reflection, your stimulus to live.  If you don’t know yourself, if you don’t have absolute control of your thoughts, feelings and ideas, things like cars, money, clothes can enslave you and keep you exactly where you are, forever.   Letting go of the materialistic possessions, letting go of trivial concerns –those which society injects into our minds- to seek a higher purpose, a deeper meaning, a better understanding of your own existence… that’s where freedom lies.  Being able to run free, move to a new city, find a way to travel the world, to disappear, to let go of it all, to choose your thoughts, to choose yourself, to control what you feel, to live happy by choice, to know who you are and love yourself for just that; now that’s freedom, and that's what I see now as the independence I'm striving for.

Grey's Anatomy Quotes

"This is the fight.  It's not a dying pain, it's a healing pain.  You won.  We won." - Derek

"If by the time the pain of not doing a thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor." - Meredith

"Knowing is better than wondering.  And even the biggest failure, even the most, intractable mistake beats the heck out of never trying." -Mer

Noble

That which you could achieve with the gift of a superior intellect could never be more valuable than that which you could achieve with the gift of a kindness. No talent or wit would uplift a soul as much as the simple act of giving love (and respect) would. Until you possess those traits, you're still a mediocre soul.

Rare

Love in perfect equilibrium isn't to couples as the gift of breathing is to the living.  It is more like the gift of music to a deaf prodigy.  Pure and rare.

Agua de Juvencia

Agua de Juvencia

"... se revela tu alma, cristalina como el 'agua de Juvencia'."


"Juvencia es un lugar en Italia del siglo 12, en tiempo de San Francisco de Asis, famosa por sus aguas.
Hay una historia al respecto:
Se dice que en una ocasión, un fraile de la orden recién fundada por Francisco de Asis, le hizo esta pregunta al Maestro fundador: 'Hermano, yo se que hablas con Dios, yo se que lo has visto. Dime, cómo es Dios?' A lo cual Francisco de Asis respondió después de un gran silencio. 'Dios es como un vaso de agua pura de Juvencia'.
Que El te siga bendiciendo."


JP

Quick Advice on Love

If you want someone to fall in love with you, don't just go out of your way to show him how special you think he is, or act out things you think will attract him. Go out of your way to show him how special you think YOU are. Love yourself.  Let others see that. "You teach others how to treat you."  Be genuine because if you can't back up what you sold upfront down the road, he will be deceived, and you will be replaced.  Have dignity; know when it is time to step away.  Show yourself some respect.  Know that you are amazing and worthy of love, so don't go out of your way to chase love around.  If you deserve it, it will chase you