A little bit of everything...
A little bit of everything…
My Confused Self
I thought it would be wise to take advantage of this "break" week from school to write something. I wondered why I haven't written in such a long time, and I think it's because I've been confused... but, I've felt confused for several years now. I hate to admit this "weakness" of mine. I strive to pull myself together and be consistent, but I fail. Oh well. It's my lifelong struggle.
What am I confused about? My relationship decisions, my dependency to someone's company, which frustrates me since I consider myself to be very independent. I guess I'm not really that –just yet. Or maybe we really aren't meant to be alone… No, I refuse to accept that true happiness is delivered to us by another person. Am I a helpless romantic? Am I a stubborn, but emotionally-dependent creature? LOL.
My Reflective Self
I was thinking about the power within us to shape our destiny, since tonight, I came across this great truth in two different sources. It said that we're artists of our own life; we make decisions that define our fate. It said that "a true artist understands that not everything will turn out as planned." Maybe some artists have an exact idea of what the finished work will look like, but they then find themselves adding textures, or different colors, or shapes, to their original idea. The finished product turns out even better than they had imagined (in some cases anyway). It also said how we need to be willing to erase what we define ourselves as, if we are trying to become someone different; "letting go of the past" in a sense. I find this very difficult to do, but very important to master if trying to redefine ourselves and our lives.
My Confident Self
My very good friend said to me, "After listening to everything you've said to me, I know that you know what you need to do… you are just not even trying. You must just do it." So true. Wow, as simple as that. I am smart enough to know how to get what I want. I am brave enough to fight for what I want. I am strong enough to do those things that will make me become I want to become.
So why am I writing this? As a commitment to myself, maybe… or just for the heck of it. What if I fail… again? I will try again. What if you think I can't? I don't care. What if I change? It's my "artwork" remember? worry about yours. Who will help me? The only one who can: God. Who will be become my enemy? My old self.
My Motivated Self
Something else I learned this week was that many of us find ourselves waiting… and waiting… and waiting for motivation. We wait for something magically happen that will push us to be what we want to be. We expect "motivation, then actions, then results…" in this order. We are wrong. Motivation will not always come to us. Or it will come, to then fade away. Motivation is not long lived when we are basing it in other people's results. Real motivation will persist when it comes from our own accomplishments and results. So the real order for real success is…
ACTIONS > > RESULTS > > MOTIVATION !
And then… guess what?
When you achieve real motivation, from your own results… it will persist and it won't go away. This will become a cycle… a good one. You will keep doing those things that got you those results and you will turn this into a good habit, a way of life. You will be successful. This was very interesting to me since I find myself sitting (sometimes literally), waiting for that spark to come to me… before I get up and work for what I want to become. So, honestly… I have been acting. I will get back with you on the "results" part of it, since I just started applying this principle to my life. I just thought it would be a good idea to share it with you. I hope this helps you too.
My Sleepy Self
Well all, I'm done for tonight. Hope this was somehow informational, educative, inspiring, or at least, entertaining. My pillow is stearing at me right now; so inviting. I love you my dear friends… I just want to say thanks to a few people that made this blog possible… LOL. To Dinorah, for sharing that email about the art of life. Jorge, for understanding what good advice is all about (keeping it simple and using the words "you know"), and to Suze Orman, my favorite role-model (never married, wealthy, independent, intelligent, spiritual woman).
I.N.D.E.P.E.N.D.E.N.T Do you know what that means? (don't you all love that song?) that's my rola, loco! Hahahahahahahahaha.
Goodnight.
